Who would have thought it would be this scary.
Every one of us thought that the first is the thrilling one. The most important and valuable one. The one that's going to make us bleed and yet ecstatic. It was probably something we can never forget. But when all else fails, first love will soon be just a fading memory of your dream romance, and then, it will suddenly start to sound more like a fantasy now, you clearly see why it was never going to happen or work. So then we move on with a stronger, more-equipped-in-love version of us, with a stronger and more realistic view, and you know you would have to eventually try again in love.
But it's not that simple now. there's worry if we are ever going to work this out well this time. There's also more what-ifs, what if it doesn't work, what if you're not on the same page, what if this will lead to nothing again... the list goes on and on. Maybe you will try to love less, maybe you will be too cautious and maybe you will be lost in your thoughts about what do you really feel... what do they feel? Is this really leading somewhere great? We want to take care of our hearts so much that it takes a lot of effort to give it to someone now.
I will not tell you not to get doubtful and scared, it is inevitable. But so does love, it is a mystical force stronger than everything we know. Love will prove you wrong, love will assure you, but only if it's true.
Most of the time, it takes love a long time before it becomes purified and true, so we wait for it. Love may have not worked well the first time, but when it shows back at you next time, it will be better, braver, wiser, and more open to get hurt but never stop loving, just like you are too.
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